Friday April 22 2021 (Informal Journal Update)

 Hello,  Nobody

    I will have journals once in a while to talk about what I am thinking about and keep track of my progress. as you/I may know I recently started this blog, April 20th, to put some of my poetry out there. I will hope to continue to do so. I hope people can enjoy my poetry. I also want to write stories but those are most likely not going to show up here. I may put out some details about it in these journals though. In these journals I want to write about the poems I posted this week and my thoughts and what was going on in my head when I wrote them. The primary reason I am writing these is to remember. I tend to forget a lot and sometimes I forget why I wrote something in the first place.

  The first poem I posted was Mirror. when I wrote it I was thinking about myself as a young boy. I tend to reflect a lot. so I wanted to embody my thought process into a poem. The main idea was the guilt I felt from being raised catholic. I was so afraid of sin that I overly criticized myself. 

  The second poem Intoxicated again. I wrote when I was intoxicated! I was drunk and alone. Then I thought a lot about a past flame. Which was not fun but I started writing about it. Getting that out was great. I did not read it for a long time but when I reread it, it felt raw. SO I worked on it and fixed it up. 

The poem, Another failed Poet is a response to a poem by Charles Bukowski. In his poem he tells people not to become poets. When I first read it I felt discouraged but it became one of my favorite poems. One writes what they know, and Bukowski knew the pains of his passion. Another Failed Poet is my response to him. 

    This week has been my first week doing this and I hope to continue. I don't know much about social media despite growing up with it. However, I am going to be trying my best to get these out for others to read. Thank you if you read this. Thank you if you didn't.